I think a huge part of spiritual growth is to be able to feel like a sluggish, petty, small-minded, jealous, self-pitying, insensitive S.O.B and not get down on yourself about it. The trick, it seems to me, is to be able to accept these feelings but know that they do not define who you are.
How did you feel when you felt your very best? I ‘ll bet you felt magnanimous, loving, and joyful. That’s what you are in essence. There are so many internal and external influences floating around this plane of existence that it is almost impossible to feel that way all the time. There’s nothing the ego likes more than to weave a good story about how horrible we are because we happened to have had a “negative” thought.
Weave away little ego…I’ve glimpsed who I am and I no longer wish to fall prey to your little snares.